TWENTY DAYS!

It's been twenty days since I've posted.

I forget. Life grabs me by the waist. Hobbies take precedent. I have more excuses if you want to hear them, but that's just what they are - excuses.

I haven't weighed in this week because I'm terrified of what the scale will say. The last week has been hectic and fast food was the best option and if you're anything like me than you know how it is to gain a pound a hamburger. I do plan on weighing in the morning and continuing with Weight Watchers.

It's amazing how we let our goals, and ourselves, get away from us. I put everyone in my life before me. I don't question what I'm doing to myself or my body because I'm constantly on the go and as of now it isn't a problem. I don't feel as fat as I am. I don't notice it because I've gotten used to it. It's sad, really, but what can you do, but change it?

That's my goal, to change it. I can't say that I'll lose 10 pounds next week. I can't say that I'll lose one pound next week, but I'm finally dealing with the reality that this is process and not an easy one. It's a lifestyle change, not a diet. There are things that I'm going to have to change within myself for this to be possible, but I know that I'm ready. I need it and I deserve it. My daughter deserves it.

Repeat Mantra: You are worth it *winks to all the Jasper girls*

Until next time...

Cake and Ice Cream and Mcdonald's... Oh My!

Wowza! I haven't blogged because I have been a #dietfail.

Ryan brought home birthday cake on Monday... then Wednesday... ice cream. Wednesday, we needed to go to the grocery, but napped until 5:30 and had McDonalds. No, it hasn't been a good week, but... I haven't added any weight for which I'm grateful.

I'm going to really try to stick to the plan this coming week. It's challenging when you live with someone who doesn't need it, but I have to stick to my guns and remember the reasons why I started to begin with.

So, maybe I do need to be food journaling. Maybe I should post what goes in daily. Would it help? I don't know, but I guess it's worth a shot.

Repeat Mantra: You got to believe.

Massive Squee!

 5lbs. I have lost 5 pounds since starting this a little over a week ago. I got on the scale this morning and literally "squeed" - not to be confused with a squeal, this was definitely more pronounced. I know that the first week is usually what they call the "water weight" week and you lose more than you will in weeks to come, but I'm happy with the number and would be happy if it were only 1.

I've failed miserably at writing daily. I guess I can really only write when I have something to say. I don't want to force anything out and bore everyone to death, so I'm jotting thoughts down as they come and always have the post screen up to write if I -do- come up with something. =)

So Wednesday... $230 in groceries!! Who does that? How did I even manage that? I now remember why fast food sounded so good. LOL I'm totally kidding, but I did really spend that much. There were a lot of BOGO's, though, so hopefully some of it will last and in the end I really did end up saving.

As far as Weight Watchers goes... I forgot how much I loved it! Seriously, there is so many recipes and so many things you can eat that I can eat that I never thought I could while losing weight. I've eaten better in the last week then I have in the last year.

That's all for now!

Repeat Mantra: Positive thinking!

“You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.” ~Albert Einstein

Oh Yes! Mobile Apps & #2!

So, today is the day I am starting Weight Watchers again. I'm pretty excited. I think I can do it, especially with you guys holding me accountable and the weigh in blog, which is for sure a go. There will be four of us, and I'm so excited! I've always gone it alone and I'm really looking forward to having some of my closest friends holding my hand through the process.

My weigh in this morning stunned me. Another pound down. Not even sure how it happened. The gyro and couple of french fries I had last night for dinner surely didn't aid in that process. However, this morning, I did switch my full fat Caramel Macchiato for a non-fat and the sugary raspberry syrup for sugar-free vanilla. One day I will learn to make my own good cup of coffee and not only cut down on the pounds, but my monthly expenses as well.

It's true! 

After setting up my WW profile I got to thinking that perhaps they had an app for Iphone and of course they did. Who doesn't these days? They have recipes, points tracker, weight tracker, points calculator, etc. Which will come in extremely helpful for me since I don't carry my laptop everywhere to calculate my points.

*here's me... thanking the Heavens*

Another site I love, but rarely use is Hungry Girl. I really should go back and open the months of daily emails I refused to delete, but didn't open. Her tips and recipes are amazing and usually have low points values. I think I will do that tonight and start planning my grocery list for next week. Part of the plan is going to be actually planning. :)

Off to do some food shopping. Happy eating, weighing, and maintaining.

Repeat Mantra: It's just a number. Being healthy is what matters.

Snack Attack!

I'm such a fail. My mother pointed out today that I didn't write yesterday, which I knew, but the acknowledgment got me thinking that maybe I should be writing here everyday. Should I? Will it be beneficial for me to do a daily entry. Will you get tired of hearing about my good days and my fat days? I don't know. I think I will try it for a while, but if I skip a day... I'm not giving up. I just have nothing to say.

So, my Saturday night ended up good. I didn't over eat. Yesterday, was good. I haven't lost or gained and I'm okay with that because I haven't really been trying and the way I look at it, no gain is always a positive. Today... *sighs* not so good, but I can still turn it around with dinner, right?

It's really difficult to be a stay at home mom and not want to constantly eat. You get bored when you aren't chasing your kid through the house, or backyard, or whatever the case may be. I snack constantly and then sit constantly to do things like blog.

Question to self: What can I do about my "over snacking" habit?

Conclusion: Buy healthy, filling snacks and get off my butt.

I know from experience that anything full of fiber and fruits are filling, so for now that's the plan. Oh, and almonds. Love them and they are so satisfying. I just have to measure out servings or I will indulge... DAILY. I don't think I have to completely deny myself to reach my goals, which I plan on setting Wednesday when I start Weight Watchers again. In fact, if I deny myself everything I'm destined to fail. I'm giving myself allowances - eating out once a week, a soda if I want one, the occasional four (or more) bites of ice cream or cake. Even the healthiest people have cravings.

Repeat mantra: You are what you eat. O_o











People say that losing weight is no walk in the park.  When I hear that I think, yeah, that's the problem.  ~Chris Adams

Pound 1 down, but... so am I :/

I lost a pound... the floating pound... I swear not to be a compulsive weigher. I'm just really excited and if I don't make it a habit I won't do it at all.

Glad I didn't add five during my trip to Bubba Gump, but I'm assuming I have the managers of Universal to thank for that. They shut off the escalators and I had to walk up a hundred steps to get to my car after eating the enormous meal. 

Today, thus far, has been a good food day. Fiber One bars are life savers. Lean Cuisines aren't as terrible as I thought, and the few bites of chocolate ice cream I had cured my craving. Hopefully, my now blah mood won't have an effect on my evening. I usually eat when I'm down or not feeling well, and tonight I am both. 

Repeat mantra: Water is your friend. 

Step One: Check!

I got a new scale! Luckily, I have a great support system at home, and last night while on his way to pick up dinner my husband, Ryan, stopped to get me one. To my surprise I was about seven pounds lighter than I expected (after dinner). While this revelation made me feel a little bit better, mentally I still pulled a Kirstie Allie on the series premiere of Fat Actress. You know where she sinks to the ground and wails like my two year old when she doesn't get her way? Yes, I threw a mental temper tantrum. Might have even pictured tossing the digital glass scale against the wall, but alas, I got over it and told myself that today is a new day.

Now, when I say I have a great support system, I mean I have a husband who weighs 147 pounds that supports ME, the person and my decisions. He will speak words of encouragement and tell me the truth when I need to hear it, but... he isn't going to push me to get my butt off the couch and go to the gym. He isn't going to tell me no when I want Taco Bell (which is what I had for dinner last night). In fact, he told me, "I'm happy for you if you want to lose weight, but not too much. I like a little junk in the trunk" to which I replied, "chubby chaser" and went on my way. I'm certain he meant what he said, but I also know that it was his way of telling me he would be there for me no matter what I weighed as long as I was happy with myself.

Then there is my friend, Sarah. She made me feel a gazillion times better about what I was doing. She is the only friend I've told about this little venture thus far and was shocked when she could empathize. Much like myself, she has gained 80 pounds in the last year. I blame the internet. :) Anyways, so Miss Sarah and I are thinking about doing a weigh in blog, which I think is a fabulous idea. Another way for me to be held accountable - which I need. I will post the link HERE once it's opened.

Today was supposed to be day one of "the plan", but I forgot I was going out with some of the lovely ladies I've met online in the last year. We went to Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. at Universal and it was FANTASTIC! Margaritas and Bourbon Mahi Mahi, I'm guessing won't be on my up and coming menu, but everyone has to splurge every now and then, right?

Anyhow, we'll see how tomorrow goes. I think WWOnline is the plan once again.

Last night's Cantina Taco's

They don't look that bad, but at 220 calories a piece... I think they were a one time deal.